i had always been told that i was wrong.

it was not something that had devastated me, rather just a fact of life: group meetings, debates, an answer or several on a quiz or exam – i was wrong. even my feelings, i believed, were wrong: crying was wrong, short bursts of ecstasy were wrong. when i had seen you confidently strut into the conference room, your clear voice, your bright smiling eyes, and the grace with which you carried yourself, i was wrong to feel the wild palpitations of my heart and the wringing of my hands, my squinting of eyes as they studied the dimple on your cheek. feeling this way, it’s wrong.

you were too perfect, too ethereal. fire amidst the snow, a moment of solitude along the train tracks amidst the bustle of the city, the only right-ness in the wrong-ness. if only natural chemical and physical reactions could be controlled, i would have corrected myself long ago.

you would never love me. it was merely an illusion to see myself reflected in your eyes. a mistake to hear my name slip from your lips. a mistake when i thought your touch lingered for but a second on my hand. a mistake, a wrong, that you replied to my awkward smile with your own awkward smile. a mistake. a wrong.

you weren’t in love with me.

but last night, at that certain party i was sure i was wrong i attended, you took me aside and with a blushing face told me you liked me. told me of the palpitations of your heart and the wringing of your hands. of squinting your eyes to study the curl of my lashes (“you have beautiful eyes” i think you told me, but i’m probably wrong). of longing to see yourself reflected in my eyes,

the way i am now, you said with a smile playing on your lips. a kind of fondness in your eyes.

are you drunk, i asked, and you responded by kissing me, forcefully and awkwardly.

you didn’t smell of alcohol.

i was wrong, once again.

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the first time you told me you loved me was about four years ago.

it was an evening event, we were restless, and i was twiddling my fingers, when you called my name.

you had probably scarcely meant it, but your mouthing of “i love you” and tracing a heart in the air meant more to me than it should.

Take a line from a song that you love or connect with. Now forget the song, and turn that line into the title or inspiration for your post.

kiss me
like you used to
with the gentle slew of words lapping softly
across the shores of my hearing

kiss me
like you used to
with your lips kneading my palms
like the tender force of beckoning

kiss me
like you used to
with flickering lashes which invite me
to the eternity of your eyes

kiss me
like you used to

like you used to
when you kissed me.

This poem was hastily done for the prompt quoted above. May still rewrite and edit this.

Dysfunctional Literacy

There are a lot of rules to writing (and I think I just broke five of them with this opening sentence), so many that I won’t even try to list all of them.  As an amateur, I read about rules of writing because I want to improve.  But I’ve found that when I try to follow the rules too closely, my writing sounds like somebody who is trying to follow the rules of writing.

Since I don’t get paid to write for Dysfunctional Literacy, I’ve decided to write the way I want to write, and I’ve noticed that I tend to break some common rules about writing.  Maybe breaking these rules will keep me from becoming a successful author.  I don’t know.  Maybe breaking these rules will help.  Either way, here are some common rules of writing that I sometimes break.

WRITE EVERY DAY.

Nobody should do anything every day…

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